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I apologise if my words of affirmation come off as arrogance
It’s how I self-soothe
It’s also a desperate attempt at having my own back
Honestly, I don't think i’m all that

You’d be surprised to know
That the friend I love the most
Thinks I don't take accountability for my actions and words
Which confuses me to the my core
Cause I’ve been known to apologise until I’m sore

Weren’t we fine last week?
Sometimes I lose touch of what’s real

Life feels like a simulation

Except everyone forgets to tell me
When they're changing the station

I carry it well
Only because I don't want to dwell
I want to make it look less heavy
But the little things weigh a ton and affect me

Got asked at dinner where you were

They wanted to know
If the mystical creature was still around
Cause ‘everyone knows’ I can't keep a man past three months

Thursday night

Think I didn’t see her name pop up on your screen?
Heart emoji still there and everything
Chose not to say anything
But I take note of everything

"That was fast"

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What’s real?
I only know you’re here
Cause you kiss my forehead before going
And make me daydream

Wish things were different
Wish they could see
The birds, flowers and trees
Or the anxiety I feel
When you move your weight in the seat
And I think you’re leaving me

Anxious attachment is what they’ve coined it
I don’t see how that can be true
If two days a week is all I need
To feel loved and seen

I just don't want to be in your world
If she’s still living in your screen
There’s only room for one of us here
And I’m not fighting someone who’s kind and sweet
For the attention of someone who’s indecisive and weak