Josh(ua)

Joshua
Joshua
Joshua

Why do you insist on calling me by my name?
Why do you insist on calling me out for exactly who I am?
Why do you insist on telling everyone who I am?

Not who they think I am
Not who I want them to think I am
Just for who I really am

Joshua
Joshua
Joshua

You spark my inner child
Why do I insist to lay still on an abbreviation?
Why do I insist on riding my boat into irons?

Perhaps because I’m far removed from my inner child
Perhaps because I’m stronger than you
Perhaps because I’m hoping I am

Joshua 

Joshua
Joshua

As long as Josh isn’t mistaken for lack of sensibility
Or the ability to feel things like everyone else
Because I do - I feel everything

I’m not Josh
I’m Joshua
Except I’m not

You
You
You

I feel so small when you mouth those last two vowels 
Like I've been caught out

Yet when strangers say it --- it feels like they know me

Regardless
I hope you know I feel it all
Deeply

Regardless
I hope you know I know it all
Undoubtedly

I’m not a teacher
I don’t make coffee for a living
I don’t study the law

I’m just Josh 
Joshua
Joshua